I feel really happy, and also kind of sad. I opened up to a complete stranger, and I'm overcome with giddiness whenever I think about her. The way she talks, she just pulls me in with stories and her laugh.
That was written a long long time ago and those feelings have faded into nothing. Now I've come to the conclusion that being single is very important for me. I have always treated this adventure as a sabbatical from real life. This lifestyle is a budgeted fantasy. I'm living my life with few restrictions and limits but I have to clean up my mistakes all on my own. I've forgotten where I read this or where I heard it but falling in love is easy, precisely why its called falling in love. My mind is at a point where it is eager to tumble into endorphins and continue living like it's the weekend. Tragically, that won't happen until this crash course is off my plate. Coincidentally, when my course is finished, summer time truly begins: Summer camp starts, then Mudfest the first weekend, then Ansan Valley Rock Festival on the second, and then I'm flying to Bangkok to meet THE craziest guy I know for a Hangoveresque time. Don't worry, Dad, I'll be careful :).
The title of this post is because the fact I went on a date-date and two alternative albums I listened two them the following day on a chilly February desk-warming assignment. I remember the emotions vaguely but I have other reasons to be happy now after seeing the big picture. I'm one step closer to gaining some bilingual certification, ultimately returning home, settling in, and then I'll just keep my head up. Why you ask? So I won't see where I'll fall.
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